my decision

after me fikir2, dan me wat solat istikarah...
me ada semangat nak study lagi...so i choose to further my study even my mum will not like my decision... i know that 1 day she will know the reason...
bukan adek tak sayang mama or adek nak hidup bebas...
adek just fikir panjang jer...
masi banyak yang adek nak belajar...dan ilmu masi banyak nak tahu...
as everyone tahu aku lemah dan lembap..
but sampai bila nak jadi macam tue right??
i think this is the time to me to change my life and full it with wonderful colours...
im gonna be success in my life macam orang lain juga...
aku pun nak hidup hepi kan...
rasa nak belajar berkobar2 la plak...
even ada rasa takut bab degree kali ni agak rumit sikit...agak susah sedikit...
ye lah, my senior said kena hafal hadis and ada belajar usul fiqh..everything in english...
apa drg ckp tu semua cukup melemahkan aku but when i think back..
if yang lain leh grade baik punyer y not me...
just because me tak pandai english???this is the time to learn it fadhilah...you can do it....
just remember u go to shah alam...to study...
ingat ingat dan ingat...
dan aku nak sgt every sem i will get 3 pointer..insyallah....
if masa diploma pun leh dapat y not in degree...
usaha dla...usaha!!!!!
even mum cakap tak nak datang time me konvo...but i know...she will not do dis to me...
sanggup ke buat adek mcm nie...
adek nak ubah segalanya mum...
improve my life....
even mum takut apa2 jadi kat adek...
doa dan restu mama sentiasa ada untuk adek kan...
adek tahu....
now im so bust urus sana sini...
medical, yuran, pengesahan..huh
so many things to do yeah...
and esok nak g kk...
urus kat uitm kk lagi...
so, now nak packing2 la dulu yer...
bye2